Thank you so much for sharing this message.
I too struggle with being a fixer, caretaker, researcher when circumstances arise in my life and in the lives of those close to me.
My focus for the last year is to spend time in prayer and in God’s word everyday…to get to know Him more, to seek His will..not mine.
Where I am struggling is not that I don’t want to follow Christ…sometimes it’s how do I follow Him.
I am so used to having to step up to the plate and accomplish things for myself or others. If I didn’t things wouldn’t get done. I felt great responsibility on my shoulders. Lately when I pray, I ask God, how is it that you want me to proceed? He said, to enter into His rest!!
I’m like…what????…no…what is it you want me to do? And He answered the same.
This was not the answer I expected. Or desired!
My main question still is how do I give something over to the Lord? How is it that I follow Him? My mind and heart are telling me that I must still do something—how can I just leave it all to Him? I believe a lot of times when people pray to God to “fix” things in their lives, it is the opposite to what I have been doing. Wanting God to show me how I can “fix” things. I never want to be waiting for God to act when He is waiting for ME to act!!
Please help me know where to go from here.
Warmly,
Twila
April 25th, 2011 at 11:58 am
Thank you so much for sharing this message.
I too struggle with being a fixer, caretaker, researcher when circumstances arise in my life and in the lives of those close to me.
My focus for the last year is to spend time in prayer and in God’s word everyday…to get to know Him more, to seek His will..not mine.
Where I am struggling is not that I don’t want to follow Christ…sometimes it’s how do I follow Him.
I am so used to having to step up to the plate and accomplish things for myself or others. If I didn’t things wouldn’t get done. I felt great responsibility on my shoulders. Lately when I pray, I ask God, how is it that you want me to proceed? He said, to enter into His rest!!
I’m like…what????…no…what is it you want me to do? And He answered the same.
This was not the answer I expected. Or desired!
My main question still is how do I give something over to the Lord? How is it that I follow Him? My mind and heart are telling me that I must still do something—how can I just leave it all to Him? I believe a lot of times when people pray to God to “fix” things in their lives, it is the opposite to what I have been doing. Wanting God to show me how I can “fix” things. I never want to be waiting for God to act when He is waiting for ME to act!!
Please help me know where to go from here.
Warmly,
Twila